I'm a mom!

I was talking with a friend online today and he said he almost forgot i had a kid...then he followed to say "when did we get so old!"....uh so OLD? oh please...i told him we arent old i just started young. But now that i have a little one i do feel so much more responsible and maybe a little older. I will always be young at heart, i know that will never grow old. geez...old is such a frightening word.

Besides feeling old...I feel so much love!

I love...that my parents are grands! mom was here for a week before dad came on his birthday and we celebrated with a little party and his new grandson. They were here for 4 days and i didnt want them to leave. they are so good to us. we now have a stock pile of food for about 2-3 weeks. Mom has helped me feel comfortable with being a mom and all the millions of questions i had (and still have). I am so lucky to have such amazing parents and Beck is so spoiled by his grami and papa!!

I love...That I have a son and he is just perfect! i dont know how he got this way but Matt and i are so lucky to have him in our lives. Its only been a week and a half but i cant imagine my life without this little angel. He sleeps and eats and rarely cries. He is just so...perfect for our little family.

I Love...rocking Beck to sleep and watching him just slip away into his little slumber. he just looks so at peace. i never want to put him down.  

I Love... his hair after he has been given a bath. He has every aspect of his dads hair. the cowlick right up front, the thickness, and the natural made mowhawk!!!

 I also love.. his crazy long eyelashes and big eyes! i just cant stop staring

how did i get so lucky!

I LOVE MY FAMILY

HE HAS ARRIVED!

bECKMAN mATTHEW rOBINSON 

Born: Saturday March 19th, 2011

Weight: 7 pounds 5 ounces

Height: 19 inches

Status: PERFECT!

 I have fallen so in love already! Beck is the calmest baby ever! He just looks around and cuddles like a pro When he starts to whimper a little its high pitch but just melts your heart! We can put him down! Matt is so proud to be a dad. We couldn't be more excited to see whats to come with our perfect little Angel.

he is SO tiny

My mother is ust AMAZING. i told her my water broke and she was already booking her flight out here. She arrived about 3 hours after Beck made his arrival. We are spoiled rotten by her. She is already the best grami Tami. She is taking such good care of us and we are so grateful for her. 

wELCOME hOME bABY bECK! 

look at those cheeks! 

we did a little photo shoot. with his monkey. 

My favorite 

I really thought that my life was great before, but now my life is perfect! I am so proud to be a mommy especially this precious things mommy. I am so LUCKY! 

WOOT!

This just in! I am obsessed with woot.com! the discounts are amazing! but you have to catch it on a good day for the good items! we got this one for more than half off and it is amazing!! except there wont be any videos of me anytime soon because i just tried a little bit on it and i look like a balloon face...so the HD is a bonus and a curse at the same time! Love it still!

A mix between the Two

Our baby will most likely look like a mix between the both of us right? i hope the kid looks more like matt. I was bald till i was 3 and he was born with a full head of dark gorgeous hair! We are crossing our fingers that by some luck the robinson cowlick will skip our kids..but not hoping for too much. so far all his nieces and nephews have one or more..!

I cant wait to say.."oh Beck has our eyes, Matts hair, My smile or nose.." or whatever! this is gonna be my kid and i cant wait to just hold and cuddle him! Just get here already Beck!

Beck's Photo shoot

so i decided i wanted to document my baby bump because we havent really taken many pictures so far. And now that im about to pop anytime soon i thought it was prime time to take some pictures to capture the moment and the largeness of the belly! I am only 37 weeks and 5 days today. He could come anytime! sooner hopefully! I felt kind of awkward asking my friend Erika Jackson (from hair school) to take pictures of us but i am now really glad that we did it. It will be good to look back on how big i was and all that! Like i said i wanted to capture "the moment" and matt really was such a good sport about it all! i dont make him do anything but i also dont like asking him to do things i know he wont want to do. but i figured this was for our posterities sake!

to see the whole shoot click on the slideshow to the right for larger prints...or just watch it scroll through.

Life is Good

Matt came home for lunch today and we took the opportunity to go to the Temple. We are so blessed to live where we live. We are so close to the temple we only have to walk right down the hill! I really should make it a goal to attend the Temple more offten. It always makes me feel so good for the whole day! Going always reminds me of how great my life is, how lucky i am to be married to my best friend, and now with the gift of a baby! I keep telling myself that i couldnt be happier with my life, and yet with every new day I come to realize that i am happier today than i was yesterday! I only imagine how happy i am going to be when i get to craddle Beck in my arms for the first time!



Best Visit

I got a couple visitors today! The Robinson's! Lenny, Ron and Emily (Seely)! they brought the cutest clothes for Beck as well as the cutest piggy bank type box! They are the greatest! I got to show them our Baby room and we chated in there for a long while! I love them so much. they definitely are my second set of parent! They are so excited for us to have a baby and be parents it just made me that much more excited. when others are excited for us it gives me more confidence that i can do it.

36 WEEKS

Today marks my week 36 which means only 4 more weeks left! or less!!!!! My fingers are crossed and im hoping i get to see this little guy earlier...but he should cook as long as he can but i wanna see him and hold him and cuddle him! Luckily im not crazy uncomfortable just looking like im about to pop anyday now! Although i've heard from everyone that i will just know when im having contractions but im scared im not going to tell if they are really happening until its too late! but this is my first time so i have no idea what to expect! im just going along with the ride, not so much as Beck. Oh man i just wanna see him!  We really have been so blessed to have such an easy pregnancy. AHHH we are so blessed! i cant wait to be a mom and matt is dying to be a daddy! We love little Beckman so much already, its torturing us that we have to wait 4 more weeks! I still havent really bought any prego clothes and now im starting to give up on getting dressed for the day and just wearing sweat pants and grubby shirts. Im so lazy! but im just at home not trying to impress anyone but myself. i do attempt to put jeans on when we go out! hahah! okay im not really that bad but im sure matt is really impressed! ha! Im ready for this belly to go away so i can move and put my shoes on without getting winded!! 4 more weeks...maybe (cross your fingers) even less than that!

Don't Cry Milk!

My favorite commercial that i cant stop laughing at! its so funny!

Buckle Up

We have been hooked up! Thanks Nana and Papa! Beck's car seat arrived yesterday and its legit! but i do need to start pumping the Lb's!!! Im too weak! Now we are all set though for Beck to come...so anytime BECK...we are all just waiting on you! haha! i still have a month to go but an early suprise would be appreciated!

5 Weeks and Counting!!

Its a good thing im pregnant because i would be psycho if i wasnt! I only have baby on my mind and making sure we have everything for when Beck comes home! I know i should be thinking about baby but it is taking over my brain! Matt asks what im thinking about and every time its....the baby car seat and i hope it fits well in our car, baby bedding, changing diapers, our stroller usage, bath soaps, and our bumbo...i wish they made those for adults! I think my thinking is normal but its too much for me! i just need Beck home so i can stop freaking out!

I only have 4 weeks and 5 days left! not that im counting or anything but i am so anxious to just see what our little guy looks like and picking out whos features he has! I'm also ready to breath again! i get out of breath just sitting down. maybe im forgetting to breath?! I am excited to be a mom! Bring it on! and i know Matt is just as excited to be a daddy! I have my mind set on Beckman coming exactly on the 26th but what if he comes earlier? I'm not prepared for him to come earlier. maybe thats what i need to work on. Next saturday he could be here....isnt that crazy!!!!! I would rather him come earlier so i can see him and actually cuddle him but i want him to cook as long as he can!! DAHHAHAH i cant wait to have a baby!!

I have fallen in love with my best friend and that love is only growing stronger with every new day! 

I love being his wife, I love our son, I love our LIFE! 

I want that!

Since i have baby on my mind im always thinking of what i want yet dont want to pay for...this is one of them! its a petunia pickle bottom diaper bag from nordstroms..

.i have bags already at home that could be used for a diaper bag but this one is just so cute! eventually i guess! i just cant see myself spending over $50 dollars for a bag...im so cheap! but a good money saver!! thats why matt loves me! haha

Im expanding!!

I am now into my 34th week of pregnancy and cant believe how much i really have loved it all!! I was lucky though and didnt really get sick only tired. Time really has been flying by though. Beck is just getting so big and so are his kicks. Pretty sure my ribs on my right side are bruised because he only chills on that side...im lopsided, not dramatically but you can tell. But now that he is getting so much bigger and there is less and less room for him to stretch i can see his movements so much more now. Sometimes i can even get a glimpse of his little foot outline. I am always thrown back when i see him sqwirm because it looks like there is an alien trying to break free from my belly! But man what a miracle it is to be able to create a life and watch him grow. Week by week i will read up on his developments and it truly is amazing how our bodies can just be put together and formed the way they do all on their own! so amazing! 

Now that the end of pregnancy is coming to a close i am constantly ready up on the delivery, which i shouldnt because i just get freaked out, but i need to know. Also i have been reading up on parenting styles and feeding and scheduling and all that! its overwhelming. Luckily i have Matt to keep me sane and going in the right direction, without him i would be lost and have already lost my mind by now! I cant believe i am having a baby! it is all unreal and yet so exciting! i dont know if i will ever be fully ready to be a mom and be all that responsible but i am capable! I just wanna see the little guy and finally hold him in my arms. plus im ready to breath normal again. its pathetic that last night we were just sitting on the couch (being lazy) and i was finding myself catching my breath....from doing nothing! oh the joys of pregnancy!

I Passed! I Passed!

Not only did i pass my state board exams, which included a practical and a written exams, but i graduated with 2000 hours from cosmetology school! It took me exactly one year! I started just last January 26th 2010 and completed the course just yesterday on the 26th of 2011!! Now i am qualified to do the works...cut, color, extensions, eye lash tinting, nails, and waxing! Im going to be working out of my house since i will be having a BABY in 2 months but will eventually work in a salon for more experience. Im in the process of putting a blog together for my business.. Home Comfort...fitting right!? but the blog will include pricing, photos of my work, experiences i've had and deals that i will have going on. So if you ever need anything please give me a call!! I would love to make you beautiful!! 

Baby Shower

The girls at school threw me a baby shower!! i was starting to think i wasnt going to have one at all until after Beck is born! ha. it was so great! i have been getting to school at 8 everyday especially since every minute means everything...except last friday i slept in a little and got to school 5 minutes late. everyone was waiting on me and starting to think i was taking the day off. I was so shocked and excited i didnt know how to react. i am so appreciative to these girls for going out of their way to throw this for me and baby Beck. There were so many treats and goodies we were both on sugar highs the whole rest of the day. Some of the girls got us some super cute outfits that i cant wait to show him off in! I love these girls! Thank you so much friends!

this is K-dawg! she is prego with triplets! haha balloon triplets! 

and here is Laura...she cant stop touching my belly! and i love it! i love her! 

Thank you SO much Taylor Andrew girls for my baby shower! I had so much fun!

We are so LUCKY!!

We got an amazing belated Christmas present today on our doorstep! Supposedly its what the celebrities all use! haha i guess that makes Matt and I stars! Thanks Mom and Dad! Once we got it all assembled i took it for a stroll around the living room a couple times! its amazing except for the fact that I'm too short and the stroller is about the size of me! not really...but seriously! its so amazing and baby Beck is gonna look so fly in it!  

A Wonderful Year!

this year has been so great! Matt and i have made so many memories is just the last 12 months. To kick off the year we made a quick moves to Utah where matt started his first "real world" job after graduating in Accounting. we packed everything once again and caravaned from seattle to salt lake! After looking for a place for us to live i enrolled into cosmetology school at Taylor Andrews in Orem. We've celebrated Valentine's day, our One year Anniversary, Birthdays, Weddings, and a new addition to our little family! Thats been the highlight of the year for sure! We can't wait to be parents and see what our little one looks and acts like. There were more Weddings, Birthdays and Holidays! Our Christmas morning was spent with just me and Matt. It was so great to have our time for christmas presents. Even though they mostly were for baby Beck but that made me yet again that much more excited to finally hold this little guy in my arms. This kid is going to be spoiled rotten by family! he isnt even here yet and he already has a room full of stuff! Not everything was for Beck and my gift from Matt was so thougthtful and i dont want to stop looking at it! He got a beautiful picture of the Oakland Temple in a subtle tone and with printing that says Oakland Temple, the dedication date and who by. I for sure started tearing up and cant stop looking. So Matt got me an amazing thoughtful gift and i got him a pair of gortex ski gloves. He needed them for sure but man...Matt is so good at gifts! i have a lot to compete with! oh and he surprised me with a gift for Beck. After seeing the commercial where the stuffed animals come alive and whatnot i had mentioned how much i love one in particular and he remembered months later and i was a surprise to see this...

BECK IS GONNA LOVE IT! i can see him dragging his monkey around everywhere, by the tail, the hand or foot to the store and everywhere else! 

So we had finished opening presents around 7:30 (because i get too excited about Santa and cant sleep!) and then headed up to the rest of the family in West Jordan to see what our niece and nephews got from Santa and Family. They are so cute about their new gifts and toys! We got a beautiful Gliding chair and tummy time play set for the nursery. Only 3 more months and i will be sitting and gliding with my precious baby boy!!!!! Its been an amazing Christmas and i cant wait for this next year! 

Sleepless

Baby beck is probably gonna have ADHD! seriously i dont get anymore sleep because he is awake all night and having ceasures..well thats what it feels like at least. I can already tell how active he will be and continuously moving or on the go. But because of his continual action i am awake all night. I dont know how Matt sleeps the whole night while i am tossing and turning. I guess its good practice for when Beck actually comes so i can handle it! Luckily i have the next 2 weeks off from school and plenty of time to catch up! oh and even better once i get back to school in the new year (thats 2011 by the way..we are totally living in the future! ha) i will only have 4 weeks left of cosmetology school and be a licensed hairstylist, as well as other services! I CANT WAIT TO GRADUATE AND HAVE A BABY! I feel like christmas is really 3 months away! Then I'm a mommy!! ahhhhhhh im so nervous yet i know everything will be fine! This is gonna be our kid and matt and i cant wait! oh my gosh.....IM GONNA BE A PARENT! Beck is gonna have the best life mostly because his parents life is so blessed and perfect! i have nothing to complain about and am only looking forward to whats to come! Merry Christmas all!! Love the Robinsons!!

kinda cheesy but it will do! haha one sunday we took some random pics! 

Oh the Weather Outside is....Beautiful!!

Matt go to go skiing with a buddy this last Saturday and had so much fun! he really is a ski junky and so good at it too!! while i was busy working away at hair school he was enjoying the fresh 14 inches of snow at Brighton! He said he had a couple powder shots and got his moneys worth for sure!! he sent me this picture to let me know how beautiful it was and how much fun he was having. Im so glad he got to get out and have fun...even though i couldnt go because of A.) i really cant miss school...and 2.) because i am carrying around some precious cargo for the next 3 months! He loves the slopes and i love seeing him come home worn out from a great day of something he loves. Once this baby is out i will be joining you in april!! 

The Stocking Were Hung By The Chimney with Care!

Our decorations are up thanks to the help of Matt's grandparents throwaway christmas supply. well the tree and some lights...okay one strand of lights really, But we got to set up some stockings for our blossoming little family. We had so much fun jamming to christmas music and hanging lights. Then realizing most of the lights from grandparents didnt work or had a continuous flow we made a sprint to ShopKo (which neither of us had been to yet matt was inspired!) we got there and EVERYTHING christmas was 60% off. so we stocked up! Notice our stockings!! yeah the one (mine) has cardinals on it..are cardinals even really that christmas-y? oh well it still looks cute! so after our shopping spree we booked it back and busted out the jams again and even took a break for hot chocolate with a candy cane and wassail. it really was a great night and festive!! i love the holiday season! 

we have THREE stockings to hang now!!! THREE..we are having a BABY! it's so much more real when you see the evidence. well i guess the belly should be enough evidence but at the same time something different shows and its like a whole new realization. I am so excited and i cant believe that i have the best husband to help me raise our son! My life truly is blessed. 

I am thankful!

I really can't express perfectly how thankful I am to have such an amazing husband. He is the person that makes me want to be better every day and I love him more and more everyday because of it. I can't even begin to explain how blessed we are to bring Beck into this world and to love and care for him. I am also grateful for my parents. I am so extremely lucky that my heavenly father chose them for me. They spoil me rotten and love me more than I can imagine. I know I don't show my appreciation for them all the time but I couldn't ask for better parents who treat me with respect and infinite amounts of love and kindness. I am also thankful for my brother and his desire to serve the lord. I am grateful for my nana and papa who are the best grandparents any girl could ask for. I am thankful to not have some psychotic in-laws and for their love and kindness as well! They are all examples to me and I look up to them. I am so blessed to have the life that I have. I feel like I should be expecting some tragic event since everything is so great. I mean no one is perfect but if you look at some others lives mine is pretty amazing (not to brag) and I am so lucky. I love my life and the life I'm bringing into this world. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to become a mother as well as having Matt as the father. I AM SO BLESSED!

And his name will be....

 BECKMAN MATTHEW ROBINSON

You may call him Beck! oh he is going to be so beautiful thanks to Matt!! I have just hit 22 weeks which is just barely halfway through but everything is going so great i almost don't feel pregnant minus the nudging reminders from inside. He is so sqwirmy and full of energy, and loves to kick it into gear when i get home and Matt and i are relaxing at home. Beck loves showing his daddy how much he really loves him! It really is amazing how there is something actually growing and marinating inside of me. Every nudge or kick is a beautiful reminder. Oh man i cant get over the fact that we are going to be parents and be responsible for this little guy! I'm committed and will always try my best to be a strong example throughout his life. Luckily i have Matt to help me along. I dont know what i would do without him. I would be pretty lost thats for sure! AHHH we are having a baby!!!! woop woop

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Welp we are off to Arizona in the morning for Thanksgiving! 

ITS A BOY!!!!!!!

Oh my gosh what a day yesterday!! We went to the ultrasound and found out we are having a healthy baby boy!! if you get creeped out by ultrasound pictures or videos..dont scroll down. i get so creeped out by them except now that its my own baby i think it is absolutely beautiful and it really is incredible at how much you can see. WE ARE HAVING A BABY BOYYYYYYYY!!! 

His Big Race

Im laggin behind again already! but matt ran his half marathon the saturday before halloween (or the day of halloween in utah) I was kind of nervous because the couple weeks before his race he was working insanely hard at work and wouldnt come home until around 3 in the morning! but he pulled if off so well! it was a costume run, he didnt dress up because he was worried about running and finishing! He did amazing for a first timer... 13 miles in 2 hours and 14 minutes! i met him at checkpoints and cheered him on and passed  him some dried apricots for some energy! 

bright and early around 7 stretching for the kickoff! 

here he is at mile 5 

only mile 5 and he is feeling great! 

about mile 7 and i was too worried about taking a picture and i almost missed the apricot hand off

mile 11 and he caught me by suprise! but he is so happy still!! wait till the finish line...

 yeah this guy ran the whole 13 miles barefoot!! crazy kid! my feet were freezing and i had ugg boots on! 

crossing the finish line. he wasnt much of a happy camper. I kept calling his name and he knew i was there but kept focus on the finish line! i had to chase him down after and he was so loopy it was really cute actually! 

HE EVEN GOT A MEDAL!! and a pretty cool t-shirt that looks like a harley davidson design. pretty cool! happy halloween! 

The Outdoors

So Matt and I love our walks up Rock Canyon. We love walking to the little spring. It such a beautiful day, and probably one of the last ones that we could take a stroll outside. I cant wait for the snow though. Wish i could snowboard but i have a better priority to focus on right now! 

 Don't judge...I am Pregnant! (this was a couple weeks ago so i wanna say about 16 weeks along)

the natural spring! a couple was there when we got there just hovering and so we walked a little further until we spied that they made the move. Oh love birds i just wanted a sip from the spring! thanks for moving! 

I love our little walks. It makes the perfect Sunday activity. I just want to take back what i use to say about Utah being an ugly desert, that was false! Utah has its pretty parts!